Thursday, September 24

i dont wanna fight with you anymore
i dont wanna stress myself out bcause of you
and i definately dont want u to be the main reason of my sadness

but.. i dont wanna let u go either

Friday, September 18

focus on what's written below the spade (:

Tuesday, September 15

one more thing


Sunday, September 13

youtube lagi,

honestly, im addicted :D

Saturday, September 12



my dad read my blog, how did i find out? well.. tad time baru smpai KLIA, Irwan suh kim slm kt dea. so i did, i said to my dad 'yah, irwan kim slm he just noded and said 'D?' hahaa, tersengih aku. pkir ayh read my texts, rupe rupenyeee, he read my blog, hahaa.
tkejut gle ah time tu :D

DAD, if you're reading this
please feel free to tell me if i did
or write or say anything wrong
thank you (:

ILOVEYOU DAD, and have a safe trip
we'll miss you dearly on the 1st day of raya
cya on the 22nd (:

Friday, September 11


it's saturday, and i'm bored

myspace is really starting to bore me, BOO you tom
lucky there's youtube, i'll be able to watch some comedy
and cheers to video games, yehh, video games

honestly people, am i emo? or do i just think that? *pfft
im beginning to talk nonsense, yaa, i do that alot lately
HATE IT: bahh,

end of story,
wait a minute, my day might just turn around
YEHH, song downloaded (:


Leave my door open just a crack, Please take me away from here
Cause I feel like such an insomniac, Please take me away from here
Why do I tire of counting sheep? Please take me away from here
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

disco ball,
hanging by a thread

hilang mood,

vavi. bosan dou duk rumaa


so you think you can dance?

Thursday, September 10


i cant seem to find a decent layout for this blog -.-

ignore this,

anywho, marissa and ninie did this thingy with their byfriends
not THAT thingy, this surat-diary thingy, haiyaa
ninie let jo read her diary (kot?) and marissa gave aisar this letter thinga-ma-bob,
smething like the letter dlm cte ItalicP.S I LOVE YOU (kot?) hahaa
im not so sure lahh, sorry

anyways, the main reason y im talking abt this is cause
i think it's pretty cool, not really my kinda thing to do or like
but still, i think's it's sweet (; congrats jo n aisar, for getting my 2bestfs
jage deorang leklok or ELSE, hahaa

hmm, waiting for D to reply my text
dea tga 2tion kot? idk, tak brape sure
i keep on forgetting when he gots 2tion : should ask him later,
okaaaay. bye

14th sept 09, four months

Wednesday, September 9

triple nine,

09.09.09? what does it mean actually?
nothing to me :P
anywys, yesterday (08.09.09) was me and D's aniversary,
4 months to be exact,
he called me at 12.02am to wish me a happy ani and said iloveyou (:

played a song for him that night, lagu crazier by taylor swift
right after the call, he sent me a text saying
'B. suare u sedap oh. hee' yehh right, hahaa
i replied 'ttbe jea' rupe-rupenye, he recorded me singing just now -.-
hahaa, i kinda thought it was cute (;

i bet u're thinking, everything went A-okay the whole day,
well. YOU'RE WRONG. we actually faught a few minutes after the call
the arguement started around 1am, huhh
i tried to comfort him the next morning, but he just stayed all moody and stuff,
i really hated it when he becomes like that,

it's been going on for the past few days, and sometimes i just felt like..
gaaaahhhh, :

mlm tu, he sent me a text saying 'woi'
ONE WHOLE DAY i tried to comfort him and that's wht i get in return? *pfft

i ignored him after that, not answering his call and text,

i got really angry at him
all it took to make me feel better was to say sorry, but did he say it?
noooooo. huhh, a simple word like that pun tkle ckap
i let out my anger by scolding him, hahaa
sorry D, i was really mad at you mase tu, sorry ssgt
like dania said, kte mara2 pun sbab kte syg kt each other :D hahaa, thnks dan

D told me to let out my feelings to him, cause he wanted me to be okay
and not simpan dendam and stuff, and i did. i let it all out that night
puhhh, legaaa. hehee, thanks D
u really know how to make me feel better dnt u? (;

umm, after a while, he finally realised, it was his fault all along

and eventually apologised, wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. lega hati, hahaa

borakborakborak, gelakgelakgelak
then he promised me that he would'nt do this to me anymore, hee
sukenyeeee :D hahaaa,
i felt relieved and greateful sebab ALLAH telah membuka hatinyaa,

ahaaa. syukur, ALHAMDULILLAH

heyyheyy, did i mention? marissa slept over my house on sunday

that night kteorg mgadakan sesi bgambar :D hahaa,
and berangan. due2 pkai selendang, hahaa mmg best (;
nahh, the pics

oh selendang :D

she went home tuesday morning (;
iloveyou marissa, hahaa. btw, all black for 2day
no time to edit this blog, sorry,
bye. and thnks for reading,

Irwan, your name is,
forever engraved in my heart